Celebrating Fourth of July.

Why not?

Since we don't actually celebrate US' Independence Day, so I created my own fireworks.

Digital/electrical fireworks. Star-effect flares courtesy of Kuai.

And some night photography too.

We love our Earth's companion...

...and reflection on the water too.

Watashi wa meru dess. This is what I do.

Just for update, plus preview of the recent outing/camping trip at Melohom Bay, Pulau Gaya, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.

Ok, forget about the update. Enjoy the preview.

• Lucky Shoot. Two birds flew into frame.

• Lucky shot juga. Hand held. Teda masa mo set-up tripod abis ni kumbang terbang sana-sini.

• I heart sunrise.
  

• Surreal sky and sea. Long exposure.

• Insects. Mating. X mark the spot. <-apa la.

As always, photos is also available at flickrs and facebook for comment and stories.

[silent words]

Death. That's the beauty of life. I could say this now. Acceptance. But when we lose someone that we love; words and conforts have no meaning. Inner strength and religious belief is only a guidance. The world goes unfair. Regrets.

Right now I'm in the weakest state of mind and strength. But I'm powered by God, friends and family. I have plans, I have wishlists. I could be happy, I could be like this. Today I went out, I took photos, I worked, I paint. This is what I did.

"Gosh, I could be soooo emo, sometimes" - by mellsilver

Happy Father's Day. I pray to God for my father's health. He needed it.

Are we going to?

Still not feeling well. My mind tells me that I got ammonia poisoning. *happy*
*sot*.
Still struggling to finish up the wedding DVD, but sempat lagi doing side-quest - Melohom: You're gonna miss this slideshow. Please visit http://o2c-family.blogspot.com/ for info.

[unstable]

Maybe I have to fake a smile to make the world better.
Ok, maybe I just have to fake a smile so that everyone is happy.
But I'm sincere when I smile.
Because I seldom smile.
I'm sorry.

Something is wrong with my body I can feel it.
Body temperature is high, I sweat a lot.
There is a time when I spaced out, numb, trying to think of something to think about.
My mind didn't go blank,
can't explain it...
but, feeling like I'm trying to concentrate on something that is not there.
Maybe I'm infected by the Hyena Flu.

Good thing it is no such thing like Hyena Flu.

Now I'm starting to hallucinating.
I don't do drugs, didn't even believe in medicine from hospital.
Alcohol no longer compatible with my blood system.
...but of course nobody believes me.
I only drinks because I respected my friends.
Maybe I should fake enjoying the drinks so that everyone is happy?
Was they happy or did I just hallucinating again?

Today before I get out from office I've been watching the ceiling outside.
The birds are dominating the area.
One bird catches my eyes.
It was black, it was still.
It been watching.
I have to get it out from my mind before they put me in straitjacket.

Beezzy Bees

Just a collection of bee-shot. This one is from Outing S-004 series (Kinabalu Park-Mesilau). Since the lighting was too harsh and incorrect white balance, the photos was a bit off the colour.

"Maybe I'll visit you later"

Pollination.

"Destination".

All in a day job.

Photographing bees are fun. In a garden with so many flowers, bees are everywhere. All you need is patience and luck. Sometimes you need to chase them around, but to get a sharp, proper lighting, you need to setup a tripod, point to your target flower, get a few shot to check the lighting, then wait. Autofocus/autotracking sometime can ruin your photo. I usually switch to manual focus to catch the bee in mid-air. But looking at my photos above, I think I needed a good quality fast lens (50mm F1.4 or 50mm F2.8 Macro or 100mm F2.8 Macro, yummy).

Bees is a delicate creature. Let them do their job. Love them for the flowers.

[Wake Up: II]

Reality and science does not always romantic. That's why we needed fantasy, novel, sci-fi, anime and comedy to spice-up our life.

Maybe my (downloadable) wallpaper below does tell you something, maybe it not. Whatever it is, feel free to make your own interpretation.

I still dunno how to draw real-looking clouds.